Why do therapists always start with childhood?
When you were born only two-thirds of your brain was developed. The aspects of the brain that give definition to the self were not developed at all. You had no sense of separation from your environment. All you could see, immediately when you were born, were the faces of those that held you (8-12 inches). For the first seven years (especially the first 3 years) you developed a sense of self that would shape your entire life going forward. We now know, through neuroscience, that during these years you were literally in a hypnotic or highly suggestible state and were being influenced on a deep level. Your sense of self is what determines how you see yourself, others, and the world, and what rules you feel about how you are “supposed” to interact with, think, and feel about yourself, others and the world, and the first seven years of your life you are being programmed by your environment and caregivers about this. Your family environment literally shaped the structure of your brain in your formative years, and so you might say that your identity and how you see yourself is an amalgamation of you internalizing how your family saw themselves and interacted with others. You were given subconscious rules to live by, directly and indirectly through your own inferences. Not all of them cause problems, but when they do they can lead to Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD). Complex trauma is different than traditional PTSD in that there is'n’t a clear, single event that caused it; Instead, there are many subtle events that create the symptoms listed below, and often happening before an individual is self-aware or can develop explicit memory about it. Instead it is stored as implicit memory, which is the kind of memory that is unconscious and effects our lives without us consciously knowing it in many cases.
Symptoms of C-PTSD
Emotional Regulation Issues: Difficulty managing emotions, leading to intense anger, sadness, or anxiety.
Negative Self-Perception: Persistent feelings of shame, guilt, or worthlessness.
Dissociation: Feelings of detachment from oneself or reality, memory gaps, or a sense of unreality.
Interpersonal Difficulties: Challenges in forming and maintaining relationships, including trust issues and fear of abandonment.
Hypervigilance: Being easily startled, feeling tense, or constantly feeling on edge.
Flashbacks: Reliving traumatic experiences through intrusive memories or vivid flashbacks.
Avoidance: Steering clear of reminders of the trauma, including people, places, or situations.
Difficulty with Attachment: Problems forming secure attachments, leading to dependency or avoidance in relationships.
Physical Symptoms: Chronic pain, fatigue, or other psychosomatic symptoms without a clear medical cause.

“Traumatized people chronically feel unsafe inside their bodies: The past is alive in the form of gnawing interior discomfort. Their bodies are constantly bombarded by visceral warning signs, and, in an attempt to control these processes, they often become expert at ignoring their gut feelings and in numbing awareness of what is played out inside. They learn to hide from their selves.”
— Bessel Vanderkolk
Talk Therapy’s Limitations
The issues that can come up in childhood can create a difficulty tolerating strong emotions, such as anxiety or depression, and can cause you to want to escape your own body’s experience at all costs. This leads to distractions from as small as constantly doom scrolling on social media, to addiction to sex, drugs, or other extreme, dangerous behaviors.
Traditional talk therapy has had little effect on individuals suffering from any kind of trauma. Though it is helpful, to some extent, to share vulnerably with another human, often it can reinforce the negative feelings and beliefs that one is going to therapy for. Neuroscience now tells us that constantly talking about our problems reinforces the problems. That doesn’t mean we don’t share vulnerably, but it also means that we have to install new software (to borrow a computer analogy) on the hardware of our minds at the same time. In order to do this, we can’t just think our ways out of our situation, we have to use our body and our mind together as complimentary partners.
The Somatic Difference
My approach is to combine conscious practices that you can do on your own to interrupt and change the neural pathways out of your limiting beliefs and feelings and into new ways of thinking and being that you actually want to experience. I combine this process of shifting things daily with a Somatic Re-parenting technique that we use in session together to communicate to the body consciousness that is causing you to feel the resistance to change. It’s the body consciousness that stores the implicit memory that runs your automatic responses to your life, and that you are often not aware of. The reason it is hard to be aware of these processes is because they move three times faster than conscious thought, making it very difficult to change this structure in your psyche without help from another human. That’s where I come in. We will use this unique, somatic method of talking to your body consciousness in our sessions together to give you a new experience of how things should have been in your childhood, but weren’t.